I just got back from a quick vacation before the internship gets started NEXT MONDAY. I'm freaking out a bit. I have so much to do before it all gets going. My house is a mess, I have some first day assignments/organizing/paperwork to finish and I just feel like I need to get my life in order. I'm so glad that I quit working at the restaurant a week ago or I would probably be much crazier right now.
I don't know why I'm so nervous about getting started. I think it's just so much change at once. I quit my job, I'm done with school and now I'm paying someone to work for free. Oh yeah, and it's finally doing the job that I've been dreaming of and sacrificing for. I think it's like a wedding; there's so much buildup to the big day that you can't help but feel anxious beforehand. On top of all of this, no one seems to understand my emotions. Friend and family keep asking "Why are you nervous?" "Aren't you excited." Yes I'm excited, yes I'm anxious. Yes I'm scared. Is that ok? I'm being honest here. I'm sure that I will be fine after Monday, I just need to get in there and know that I really can do this and finish this whole adventure.
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